Here we are so happy to finally meet our little one. Tears came to my eyes as soon as I heard her LOUD STRONG cry. I knew it was going to be okay this time. I admit that through the whole pregnancy I was worried that the tests were wrong, that we would be burying another child because of SMA. Going through that experience really changes you and after that and a miscarriage too, I had almost given up on having a healthy child to enjoy. Thankfully I had a good friend who cheered me on and kept me going. I'll always be thankful for her love and encouragement; she gave me the courage to overcome my fears of SMA and not let it destroy our chance for happiness.
Just beautiful. We couldn't get over how amazing she was from day one. I know that they really just eat, sleep, and poop, but she did more than that. She MOVED...and a lot too! She hasn't stopped moving either. We did have a few worries in the hospital and tests run to make sure she was okay. She's already had to have two echocardiograms, but the last one came back normal and the heart murmur she was being monitored for is nothing to worry about. I won't lie, I freaked out over that. I had a day where I cried and ran out of the house almost screaming. I thought my joy was being threatened, but thankfully things are fine. I'm trying not to be the crazy mom who freaks out over everything, but it is hard. Very hard.
Today she is a month old. I don't know where the time has gone, but it has flown by for sure. The nights are exhausting, but we seem to forget all about that with each new little thing that she does. There have been up and downs for me already, but I hope/think I've avoided the postpartum depression that plagued me with Eli. Not being able to exclusively breastfeed her has been disappointing, but I know in the big scheme of life, that's pretty minor. We've had to deal with real issues in the past and as long as she's being fed and growing, it's all good. We still get to bond over nursing, but Jason is able to help out too and I'm not terrified of taking her out now. At her appointment on Wednesday she was weighing in at 9 pounds 14 ounces and was 22.5 inches long. She's growing and I take comfort in that.